Lot of hugs to you dear. I hve seen one of my friend go through this but now she has a smart little boy. So, I understand the pain as I have been with her throughout the phase. I would suggest you not to come under the pressure. Take some time. Until you are mentally ready dont go for it. Dont take any decision now. Talk to your husband and explain him your situation and ask him for some time. Meanwhile focus on your well being. Eat balanced healthy diet, exercise regularly, engage yourself by pursuing ur hobby, meet friends or talk to them. This will help u. Also do once consult a good doctor who specializes in cases like yours, just like my friend did. I am sure this time you will not be heartbroken dear.

Take care.